anyway unrelated to that,
angelina jolie.
i dont know why i do, i just dont like her.
and i dont understand why when people find out about it go WHY??? and then try to force feed wunnerful facts about her into my noggin in a built-in-instinct attempt to make me like her. it never works anyway
oh i AM aware she didnt do anything to me and i dont know her personally (DUH) its just like how there are some celebs you just instantaneously like or dont regardless what they did or didnt do.
get it? no? i'm the only one? nevermind.
alright you dont have to go on an i-hate-jasmine-coz-she-hates-my-idol thing, i dont HATE her as in, i sit all night seething in anger that she lives or masterminding plots on how to take her down or smth. i do have a life okay.
more of, i'm already at the cashier but i suddenly noticed, hey its her on the front page cover and i abandon all intentions on purchasing the said magazine.
see, i'm harmless
but i really really do want to watch...
1 letter, 2 words
A LEVELS, OVER!!
not officially, since the results are not out until august, but ive sat for my last paper and as far as i'm concern, it's done with!
besides, i'm NOT taking anything like this ever again! i dont care if my results come out shitty and i'm unable to qualify for any university courses, i'ld gladly take any pre-U course except this one!
thats how bad i found it. and i'm not exaggerating. another 1.5 years of this pure torture? nah, ild pass thank you very much. heck, ive been waiting for this day to come since..forever! ok maybe a year.
you say, 'haiyoh, it cant be that bad'.
i say,' u sit for my papers and then tell me'
i'm sure any a leveller sitting for the a2 this year will agree with me that the cambridge examination council is really OUT TO GET US. bio 4 and mech, pretty much expected qns like those to come out BUT chem p4, chem p5, bio p5, MATH P3??? *&%$@!#
past year papers? pah theyre nothing compared to this. so i say, good luck to you those taking the finals in nov, cambridge really expect a hell lot more from you now.
*cross fingers* please please moderate please please moderate!
ok, went off the tangent there :P back to the most important point, it is OVER, happiness overwhelms.
i'm not adapted to the sudden freedom, i mean after so many weeks of exams looming and shadowing at the back of your head, guess its only fair to give the old brain some time to adjust.
i found myself, a few times today,particularly when i was having fun, thinking OH NO next paper coming up. and then remembering STUPID, you finish ur exams larh duh!
its like my brain is feeling guilty for..having fun and so tries to take myself down a notch by reminding me theres STILL exams even when i have none!
gah i guess that mechanism was the leftovers from the months before!
OMG this might take a while to go away!
or im just being paranoid!
i should seriously stop boring you with my theories!
and typing in sentences that end with exclamation marks!
MOVING ON,
today was helluva fun day :) bio p5 sucks shit didnt go so well this morning, but whatever, read all those i-don-care-its-all-over stuff above, so wern ching, wei yee and i headed to sunway pyramid for lunch, taking lots of pictures :P spending the last few hours of the afternoon together before literally heading separate ways. not to worry! theres definately a time where we would meet up again.
at night, headed off to teluk gong, klang for yummy seafood :) with yvonne and the rest of the acts tv crew. will post more on that when i'm not so lazy i get pictures
awesome!
contrary to popular belief ,
NOT studying will be the death of me.
yes, dexter im talking to you, and see, im updating! :)
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where art thou motivation?
please give me a call when you are free.
and dont take too long, preferably before 22nd May 2008 of course
before i waste more time doing things like...
wow lookit, see how time flies.
tomorrow's the last day of college before we dive head first into the examination month
and teacher's day! :P
a proper update after the exams i promise!
11 JUNE! so,
dont give up on me yet :)
after exams when i have so much things to say,
you might be forced to read so much and you will go ARGH Y DID I TELL HER TO UPDATE
well, i said might
(yes, im still referring to you dexter)
ahha ok bullying ends here. i feel bad
GOOD LUCK A-LEVELLERS!
GOD BLESS
" I try so many times
But it's not taking me
And it seems so long ago
That I used to believe
And I'm so lost inside of my head
And crazy
But I cant get out of it
I'm just stumbling
And I'm juggling all the thoughts in my head
I'm juggling and my fears on fire
But I'm listening as it evolves in my head
I'm balancing on one fine wire
And I remember the time my balance was fine
And I was just walking on one fine wire
I remember the time my balance was fine
And I was just walking on one fine wire
But It's frayed at both the ends
And I'm slow unraveling
Life plays so many games inside of me
And I've had some distant cries, following
And their entwined between the night and sun beams
I wish I were free from this pain in me "
14th of march, i turned 19
A big THANK YOU! to everyone who remembered.
--> for the smses, birthday greetings in person, on facebook, friendster, long-distance calls, e-mail, instant messages,poems! You guys know who you are.
Thanks for the dedication posts sally and tiff :) brought back memories of the times we've been thru (ARGH im making this mushy but its true!)
Another round of applause for the pink and yellow core teams!! Really didnt expected it as they wished me already before and during the meeting at AYA. After the meet, lights suddenly went off, i dont know who covered my eyes and michelle and tessie carried me all the way into another room.everything was done so quickly! SCREAMING and laughing because i was afraid they would tickle me.
eunice on the guitar and everyone was singing the birthday song.
they only let me go when they had a cake brought out with the candles lit. :)
There was also a giant banner made out of 5 cardboards was there reading: " HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE! WE LOVE YOU!" in capitals ( this new layout wont let me type in capitals!! rawr)i think its time to change. i love capitals too much hehe :P
anyway, wow, im amazed people would actually do this for me :D
i got to keep the banner but it was too big to hang anywhere in my room so ild bring it back to kch. cake was lovely and the company was awesome.
Again, thanks so much everyone. i appreciate every single effort.
its pretty nice to feel loved.
sorry about the post being so monotonous :P. im extremely tired its been a long day. ild share another time about the other thing thats bothering my mind and its not about my studies altho i shud be worrying about that. but its fine.
i ve always admired sally's strong front. no matter what comes her way, she's focused and unwavered. yes, shes been my rock since forever, giving strength when im losing my ground.
so ild do what you do, sally. this time, instead of feeling inadequate and shying away when bad news arrive, ild step up, prove my worth and hell-bent to see my dreams realised.
And so what if the nay-sayers are right, even if i fall, ild get up and run for another try. its doesnt matter the number of trials because when victory is at hand, its gonna taste a thousand times sweeter.
why bother? because life's too short to allow disappointments and what-ifs take over
" 3 months and not a word from you. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME??
REMEMBER who became your outlet whenever u needed to vent and rant?
the one who kept your memories ( only the ones you bothered to type out, you lazy ass) in archived files faithfully??
WHY? i demand an explanation!!
look at the precious minutes visitors WASTE just typing the blogsite into the address box to find that i have nothing to offer them, I FEEL SO ASHAMED! and all because SOMEBODY didnt bother to even say HI! "
thats my blog wailing.
it misses me :)
anyway, i promise*(see below) i will blog about everything and anything under the sun once the a2 exams are over ok?
being 0% prepared, im so lazy im starting to scare myself and its march already!! its not like i have alot of time left.
3 and a 1/2 months and i'ld be done and flying for home.
i wonder, will i miss this place? as much as ive been complaining, 1 and a half yrs at another place does get to you..
ok before i turn this into a gay emo post , ild leave it to when i actually get there!
SLEEP! i will study erm...soon!
y cant i be more hardworking like sally? spare me some willpower ok?
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[* depending on mood and availability of internet connection :)]
