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HALLELUJAH

I PASSED!!!

cant believe it.

its mi-ra-cu-lous!!

ahhh time to enjoy the next 3.5 months
my holiday has really just begun.

and
i'm flying home tmr!

:D:D:D:D:D:D

Lunch at Avoca + Seaside

Marios and Elenor, our assigned 'church foster parents' brought Rachel and I to Avoca handweavers at Wicklow for lunch last Sunday after service..and then to Greystone where the seaside was. Will post more pictures up if I have more time but look at how happy we were!

For now, I shall summarise with four words:

Indeed, it was wonderful :)

AHHHHHH!!

OMG IM SO EXCITED!

heard news today

that would make me smile all day

:D

A BIG SUPER YAY!

OH THANK YOU LORD!!!

i've found a place! :)
one i really like too!!!
gonna pay the rest of the deposit and
sign up the contract by end of this week
whhoooohooooo

all those nights searching on rent.ie
calling up agents one by one only to get rejected
because we dont want to pay through summer.

no moreeee!!

all i need to do now is finish packing up

but i'ld do that,

this time with a BIG BIG SMILE!

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL ok ive officially gone insane.
but who cares.

tying up loose ends

my room is looking 10000000000000000X its normal messy state.

help!! *drowns in a bottomless pit of boxes+clothes+books*

denise has kindly allowed me to store my stuff at her place for the summer tmr so i have to get everything packed up and sealed by 8am tuesday morning. probably take a cab and lug all these boxes.i think her place has a lift. oh please, let her place have a lift! O.O

spent the morning going to uni to get my reference letter and the bank too. rained while i was out. and when i was safely in my room, it stopped. WHY??!!

will be checking more apartments at 5,6 and 8pm. by the time i get home fr running about the city, i'ld be so tired i wont want to move.. and i probably wont keep my hopes soaring high this time with the viewings. been disappointed by very misleading maps, landlords who cant even remember their appointments and too smalll rooms, even a table cant fit in =.="

back to packing, hmm.. how on earth did i manage to accumulate so much stuff in less than a year?? its been only 8 months! feel like just chucking everything out. meh.

wish me luck!

realise

hunting for cardboard boxes from stores is hard work!!

apparently they 'shred them immediately to reduce storage space'. says pc world, tesco, mark and spencers etc. pfft.

finally managed to sequester a couple of lovely huge ones from asia market with yun. yayy asia market! you never seem to fail me! i love you asia market. wait, i remember the time you sold me very expired instant nooodles. and the other time, your veggies shrivelled up and yellowed the next day ive bought them while u insist they were 'fresh'. plus the other time.. okay, ill stop here because it would take a while.

lugged them home and there it is sitting nicely in the middle of my room. when am i gonna fill them with all my stuff to move em to its new temporary house, i dont know. i just keep staring at them and i get happy. wth i know. but let me be wth-ish for a while! for someone who display severe pms-ish cranky syndromes when packing a luggage bag fr kch to kl, this is a good start! congratulate me. now!

im getting nostalgic. one by one my floor mates are moving out. im going to miss living here.ah, was it so long ago? unpacking from my 17hr flight from kl in this then unfamiliar place. anticipating the arrival of my new roommate, wondering how she would be like. hopefully nice like me to find out that shes not coming anymore , so i get this double room eventho im paying half the price :D

kept awake that night and a few nights after, because of the bar just a stone's throw from my apartment. learned to sleep through noise pollution live loud bands who play the same songs over and over each time each week , drunkards shouting around, the sound of smashing bottles. easy peasy.

i love how dunnes (supermarket) is just opposite my apartment. just out my window. and the convenience it brings. milk stolen for the Nth time? no worries, dunnes so near. chicken stolen??? look! dunnes!. okay not funny. i lost count of how many times my food gets stolen from the communal fridge. all of my pizzas, milk, chicken, yogurt etc whoever the thief is, i hope you get poisoned. oops, that was mean of me. fine, i hope you choke. and let it be CLEAR that it DOES NOT hurt to ask. never. would this nice, gentle, lovely soul (ahem) turn you down if u asked for food because you wasted your food money on booze or just being plain lazy to walk 10 steps to dunnes to get your own??? i dont mind sharing my stuff but you dont want to share do youuuu.

and all the meetings held in my room. that 1st online quiz we gotong royonged together. lol. CC practices. planning our roadtrips. movie nights. gonna miss all this. it wont be the same staying so far from each other when we move out :(

extra fan dancing lessons for international night. at rach's/my place/millin basement. ahhhh i think it was int night that really bonded us.

library being 30 seconds away.

having hotel-room phones calling each other for free just by entering our room numbers.

birthday surprises, potlucks, get togethers, cooking meals and getting mad at the money-eating laundromat at millin basement.

yeah, ill miss this, the good, the bad..

the memories are for keeps but its time..

time to make new ones.

:(

not myself these few days.

come monday, i will stuff myself with all the ice cream i can find.

sigh.

whoozaaa

its 956am on a disgustingly drippy rainy morning. hmm having no plans today, ild just lie here snuggled under the duvet until ive had enough of this warm bed (naturally never) ooo becoming a bum :D

yes, exams are over!! very much relieved. am sleeping too much normally again with a peace of mind. oh ive missed sleeping with without a care in the worrlllddd :D

dont ask how exams went! dont ask. ok ill tell you. one word: horrifying!!! probably the worst exams ive ever sat for in my entire student career...SO FAR. damn, its only sem 2, itll only go downhill from here. oh wells lets just hope ild pass this sem. exams results are out the day before i fly home. erm..yeah, whatever.

next on the to-do list: FIND AN APARTMENT. uber tediousness! and packing!!! O.O

its all pretty sketchy right now. about when would we actualllly find a place to stay, move in, if not where to dump our stuff? would we need to come back early for summer to find a place if we cant find one now before we leave dubs?.. praying everything runs smoothly.

during the exam period, it was sooooo hot here. i know right. dublin = hot? never!!! even in summer :( but maybe the sky knew we were melancholy, saddish and grey because of a bunch of papers with hard questions on them, that it decided to unleash glorious sunshine to brighten things up. overdid it tho. it started to get really hot and stuffy at home aaaannndddd it doesnt help when ur stuck in the lib/home, and u look down the window to see summery happy people enjoying the weather shopping or lazing around on the grass at the park.. *stab stab stab*

and so i thought just u waaaaiiitt. after my exams ild roll around the wonderful green grass and skip along the streets to declare my independence.

uhhuh. right. the skies were gloomy and rainy ever since. thanks. thanks alot.

1st day after exams: went for a few appointments looking at apartments. no luck on findin one suitable yet. i think we went to 4 places?running around city trying to find the different place. i dunno why addresses in dublin are like..2 lines? eg. exchange street, temple bar. thats it. whaaa...? even with google map its still hard. and when we got to exchange st finally after roaming around in circles, we realise its NOWHERE in temple bar okay. geez man.

after all our efforts, met up with a few others for dinner at hard rock cafe. yummm.. was so tired and full after. came home and collapsed on the bed. lol

2nd dayy: our picnic at the park (organised eons ago during exams) was reduced to 'potluck at millin basement' due to the rain =.=". ran around in the rain to buy ingredients. made sticky lemon chicken with melissa..and it was awwwwwwssssssuuummmm posssuuummm babeh. XD fun fun fun. rain lasted from early morning into the night! and i mean heavy rain. crazy!

3rd day : church, grocery shopping, came home and made tom yum! obviously not fr scratch :D but hey, a proper meal in ages! caught up with sallyy on skype. lol was good talking to you milady!! 2.5 hrs of nonstop chatter. happiness! yes, starbucks. i know youre dying for ice blended green tea. i want my java chip! :( and all of the various places we'ld go in good ol kch.. cant wait to see ya.

and today its day 4! ooo an invitation to roam around dundrum!

ok enough of this typing. pfft..needa catch up on some snoozing :P and then dundrum here i come!!

JASMINE IS

..in big trouble.

*just wanna hide under my covers and never venture out..*

drama, stop stalking me!

:(

exams AGAIN??

im hungry

im tired

im far from finishing

i dont have enough time!

after writing two long complainy, ihatetheworld whiny sentences to dear ol' daddy

he replied with a cute simple,

':) cheer up'

ah, how is it that he's so patient?

i dont have the heart to remind him

that in the likely event, *GOD FORBID GOD FORBID!*,

must i resit all modules in early sept,

it would set him back a 'gorgeous' 3.5grand

le sigh.

prayers and/or donations are welcomed.

hiatus

been busy, will be busier so wont be updating soon.
maybe after the exams :(

leave you with.. plain white T's bubbly cute song :D

1,2,3,4

give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)

give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.

i love you

Aaa..OKAY!

whenever i meet someone new,
within 15 minutes of talking to them,
they will tell me the same thing

' i notice you laugh..ALL THE TIME!'

and how would i respond to such a statement?

laugh!

yeah i know, hopeless case


i remember a conversation with a friend who picked me up for church in kl,
a level finals was a week away
and he noticed i was slightly tensed
but other than that perfectly the same

im sure he termed me as one of the SMILY PEOPLE.

and he said 'dont you ever get..sad? or angry? i can tell ur abit stressed now but youre still always happy happy'

=.="

i explained that er, duhh i AM human too. i do feel the whole range of emotions everyone does.
when things dont go my way,
yeah, i whine, make alot of noise, get bitter, pout around, yada yada.. the whole works
yeah i have my bouts of emo-ness
yeah, i feel exams as a shadow at the back of my mind
but after a while, i have to smile again
(what? being stubbornly unhappy is tiring, okay..)
isnt that normal?
i mean theres only so long u can get hung up on smth for.

he replied,

' i always see you so happy but i hope its genuine...
sometimes i wonder if youre hiding your feelings
remember, dont keep negative emotions inside. its better to let it out'

o.O

is this guy for real?

did he HEAR what i said?

how does he go around doubting people's happiness?

but i forgive him

maybe im happy-go-lucky
or
maybe i just have a short attention span
or
maybe i smile too much and give people the wrong impression

whatever it is,
when you see me,
that smile i give you is not a facade okay.

and it DOES take less muscles to smile

:D
there you go.


but that doesnt mean that you go about stereotyping me
with a life thats all lalala rainbows sunshine and unicorns or whatever


shit happens to me too. *gasp!*
actually..especially me, okay =.="

of course you allow moments to be rightfully upset
but at the end of the day,
be happy
wherever you are, whatever your circumstances
because if youre waiting for things to change
waiting for whatever reasons,
you might end up waiting forever.
and we all know how life's too short for that.

ANYWAY,
soon u might find that i would be contradicting myself becausee..
its that season again!!

EXACTLY one month to the dreaded exaaaams!!

damn.
time for last minute nerding again :O

ill stop asking 'when will i learn?!'
because i know i wont :S

ah, i foresee
late nights, strewn papers over the floor, sugarr, mayhem

oh boyy..

**

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!

treasure

you don't know what you've got
till its gone..

so when you get it back
you'll hold on.

**

but do you believe in second chances?

NANANANA cant touch this..

so much to update on.
everything's happening so fast.
event after event.
things ild like to share...
but just thinking about writing them up,
ah so tedious.
since when blogging became stressful?? lol

today

hands down,

one of the best days of my life.

'nuff said :)

breathing under water

claire : uh.. even if things were different, im not really into the whole relationship thing right now..

alex: hmm...

claire: just seems like everyone that gets married, gets a divorce.

alex: okay. i think its more like half of all marriages get a divorce or smth.

claire: yeah, but who knows how happy the other half is.

alex: dunno. i still think its worth it.

claire: why?

alex: for moments like these. the way when someone gets you when no one else does.
its definately worth it.

-Season 3, episode 18 of heroes

**

my view on marriage used to be very fairytale-ish,

y'noe, guy comes along-sweep you off your feet-happy ending sort of thing.

probably disney's fault.

as i got older, and perhaps more cynical, i adopted claire's view.

but certain events during the past week...

have had me going all in for alex's.

:D

:S

been a long and tiring week.

just got back from college after spending practically the whole day there doing this and that.

welps, gotta get used to it.

glimpse of my monthly planner for march.
its already 75% full.

T____T

... i need a hug.

Chinese New Year in Dublin

my weekend is endingg! sunday nights always bring about a tiny bit of sadness cause its back to sch tomorrow :(
lucky you aidan chan! 8 months of freedom! lol
i mean, i do quite like sch..but i like weekends better. haha

this coming week would be pretty hectic. cardsigning on friday. on top of that, starting practices for international night twice a week. so for malaysia, we're doing a drama written by our seniors. all i have is 3 scenes, all very minor because im involved in the chinese dance which is also part of the play. im not worried about the acting (because in scene 1, i do nothing, scene 5 i say 2 lines and other times i act bimbotic. lol) but the dance! oh the dance!! i cannot dance! if im still no good by..march, i would voluntarily pull out! this is not being pessimistic. its being practical. the show..must go on. haha

okay, i know cny was ages ago but who says u cant blog about ancient topics, ey?
1st cny away from home :(
of course its not the same. the streets were so quiet, no fireworks, no red and gold plastered around the shops. no lion dance. NO RED PACKETS :P

but we made do with the best we could :D and the people here were very accomodating. grosvenor church (the church we go to every sunday) held a special cny bring and share lunch especially for us!

the spread of western+ asian food.

and they even played those tong-tong-tong-chiang cny music on the stereo to make the ambience more chinese new yearish lol

keep in mind,
its not a chinese church
and that the pastor and most of the church go-ers are irish,
so was very very touched they bothered to hold a little smth.
really didnt expect them to.

1st day of cny, wanlin who's our senior, held a potluck at her place
and was nice enough to extend the invitation to us juniors :)

thats the pretty host in pink!

the seniors! plus wanlin's dad next to her. he came to visit fr msia

here's evie and i

ate, played games, did silly things for the camera. lol. good fun
couldnt stay for long tho,
had to pack for paris since the flight was a few hrs away
i know i know, im very last minute. :D

came back from paris and on the dunno wad day was it of cny,
PMCSA held a lovely buffet at jimmy chung's
we came straight from church and was still late
so everyone stared at us as we made our grand entrance. lol.

no seats left so they gave us the 'reserved' one next to the ambassador's table :)

stayed til everyone left.

paris day 2,3,4,5,6,7,8 up soon when i have the time.
i have a feeling i lack the willpower to finish but NOOooo ambition must be fulfilled
even if i take months and years!

lol i bet u guys would be so sick of paris once its done but..for the sake of memories :)

P-A-R-I-S!! Part Un

DAY 1

off the plane, hopped on the bus to the city centre and found ourselves the nearest metro.

the 1st thing that hit us was the cold. and then, the language barrier.

everything's in french

so we basically made our own intepretations of the signs and notices. lol.

was so excited!

checked into the hotel, dumped our luggages and off we were to explore the city!

the ladies :)

1st thing we see once we got off the metro

setting up the tripod for group photos! will upload them once evelyn does.

and then we're all set! walking to champs de elysees,

passing by buildings of which i forgot their names :P and monuments

statue of winston churchill

after about 20 minutes,

here we are!

CHAMPS DE ELYSEES!!

leading to all the high-end shops

nah, tian. spotted your b&o. lol

funny story. he arrives in paris on the 4th

and guess when i left for dublin?

the 3rd!!

talk about bad timing eh.

louis vuitton! where it began

at the end of champs de elysee, you'ld get to the Arc de Triomphe

can u see the faint outline of it behind us? heh

and then we took our tourist shots

walking under the arc

and through the underground tunnel to climb up about 300 steps in the arc to get to the top.

after climbing for..ever, we reached the top!

well, not really, got to a level below it where they showed the intricate detailings of the arc's exterior thru this projector thingy and models.

climbed somemore and FINALLY, reached the roof of the arc

the view? spectacular! my camera does no justice.

and you could see all of paris from up here!

i love how the arc was made to be the centre with the roads coming off them like rays of the sun. i think theres 12 avenues in total. and heres just two. to take all 12 in a photo would need a helicopter or smth

its not a really good photo but look, you can see the basilica in montmartre from here!

its the white mosque-like buiding right at the back shrouded in clouds on top of the hill

went back along champs to grab a bite. and set off on foot to the eiffel tower!

walked and walked...and walked.

and

nearly there!!

walked and walked some more..

almost there!

*walked and walked...AND WALKED!!!* aaannnddd

yay!

hello eiffel tower!

in the lift up the tower.

top of tour eiffel! it was freezing cold up there. the strong winds didnt help either. so after 15 mins or so, popped back to the observatory.

view of paris from the observatory...

the arc de triomphe!!

headed back to the hotel with our feet all sore.

but hey, we got to see 3 famous landmarks of paris in a day :)