sad

i just came back from piano class..

two hours of copying notes on the history of music really would kill the nerve endings of your hand..

perhaps its coz it felt like ages since i held a pen but after i was done, (well actually i wasnt, i havent even finished the whole of baroque period perhaps my teacher let me go seeing the pain my fingers gave me) i found that the skin on my fingers where i gripped the pen tightly, were peeling off..argh

and then i started to get worried, more than my usual worried self..worried i wont be able to pass my diploma in piano..

she explained it already the other day about how i needed to pass all the components in order to pass unlike grade 1-8 where it doesnt matter if u fail one or two components as long as the total mark is 100 or above.. and the one component in diploma im afraid of is the sight reading..

WHY? why cant they cancel it out like what they did to the scales and aural?

ive never been good in sight reading..how on earth can i sight read for my exam?? i have to start all the way back in grade 1 sight reading i think..arghh

oh well, ild try my best i guess afterall its still quite a long way to go for the exams..

even if i fail it at least i have my grade 8 cert to fall back to incase i ever need to teach piano.

in other non-related news, im even more depressed to hear about siaw hui going off earlier than i expected..dec 21..thats like..4 days to go.. scratch that its TWO DAYS TO GOand so ..tml will b our last day out..

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i mean i know you will be leaving us siaw, but i didnt think it'll be so soon..

perhaps it was the sudden-ness that took me by surprise.. i mean i knew u were going off since what? we were in form 1 that uld b going off to melb.. i jsut didnt think it'll be jsut around the corner

i'ld miss u dearly siaw.. if this turns out to b mushy and crappy i dun really care.. we practically grew up together..11 yrs no wait i think its 13 yrs

goodness and now ur already announcing that ur leaving, and early. i dont know what to say

ur right it will never b the same again even if u do come back to visit us once in a while.. it'll be all different now..perhaps thats what just dawned to me.. it really is true

look at how our friendship.. altho we have our misunderstandings, moments of doubts with each other and of our stubbornness..i think i did the right thing in kindy A when i shyly extended my hand to you, asking of your friendship.