Aaa..OKAY!

whenever i meet someone new,
within 15 minutes of talking to them,
they will tell me the same thing

' i notice you laugh..ALL THE TIME!'

and how would i respond to such a statement?

laugh!

yeah i know, hopeless case


i remember a conversation with a friend who picked me up for church in kl,
a level finals was a week away
and he noticed i was slightly tensed
but other than that perfectly the same

im sure he termed me as one of the SMILY PEOPLE.

and he said 'dont you ever get..sad? or angry? i can tell ur abit stressed now but youre still always happy happy'

=.="

i explained that er, duhh i AM human too. i do feel the whole range of emotions everyone does.
when things dont go my way,
yeah, i whine, make alot of noise, get bitter, pout around, yada yada.. the whole works
yeah i have my bouts of emo-ness
yeah, i feel exams as a shadow at the back of my mind
but after a while, i have to smile again
(what? being stubbornly unhappy is tiring, okay..)
isnt that normal?
i mean theres only so long u can get hung up on smth for.

he replied,

' i always see you so happy but i hope its genuine...
sometimes i wonder if youre hiding your feelings
remember, dont keep negative emotions inside. its better to let it out'

o.O

is this guy for real?

did he HEAR what i said?

how does he go around doubting people's happiness?

but i forgive him

maybe im happy-go-lucky
or
maybe i just have a short attention span
or
maybe i smile too much and give people the wrong impression

whatever it is,
when you see me,
that smile i give you is not a facade okay.

and it DOES take less muscles to smile

:D
there you go.


but that doesnt mean that you go about stereotyping me
with a life thats all lalala rainbows sunshine and unicorns or whatever


shit happens to me too. *gasp!*
actually..especially me, okay =.="

of course you allow moments to be rightfully upset
but at the end of the day,
be happy
wherever you are, whatever your circumstances
because if youre waiting for things to change
waiting for whatever reasons,
you might end up waiting forever.
and we all know how life's too short for that.

ANYWAY,
soon u might find that i would be contradicting myself becausee..
its that season again!!

EXACTLY one month to the dreaded exaaaams!!

damn.
time for last minute nerding again :O

ill stop asking 'when will i learn?!'
because i know i wont :S

ah, i foresee
late nights, strewn papers over the floor, sugarr, mayhem

oh boyy..

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GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!